Lyrics

Wish I could make a decision
To alter everyone’s vision
Lose a patch of me
Look like the beauty queens
Cool girls and models on movie screens

Want to make alterations
To my form of creation
Deflate me
And change me
Til I’m some strange mutation
All it takes is starvation

If I could cut holes
So nobody knows
I’d tear myself apart at the seams
If I could see clearer
And look in the mirror
I’d be living in my fantasies
In the abyss
The emptiness hits
Cause everyone knows I will never be perfect
The black hole is pulling me in
I don’t think I’ll come out of it

Counting the numbers
Hitting the gym
Waiting til skipping lunch finally kicks in
And I lose all the weight
And finally feel worthy
But maybe I’ll never stop hurting

If I could cut holes
So nobody knows
I’d tear myself apart at the seams
If I could see clearer
And look in the mirror
I’d be living in my fantasies
In the abyss
The emptiness hits
Cause everyone knows I will never stay perfect
The black hole is pulling me in
I don’t think I’ll come out of it

I look at myself
Through broken eyes
I look at myself
Through someone’s lies
I look at myself
And hope something changes
I’ll look again and again
Til I’m a stranger

If I could cut holes
So you’d never know
I’d tear apart at my seams
If I could see clearer
To look in the mirror
I’d be living in my dreams
In the abyss
The emptiness hits
Cause everyone knows I will never be perfect
The black hole is pulling me in
I don’t think I’ll come out of it
I don’t think I’ll come out of it
I don’t think I’ll come out